"Oopps, I did it again!" as in the Brittany Spears song.

Hello ma Peeps! What's shakin? Really not much here which is why I haven't posted for awhile. Danny and I just got home from a wonderful trip from Williamsburg Va and Washington DC. I think it was one of the nicest vacations I'd ever had in my life. You know, sometimes I know the answer to questions I really wasn't going to ask. The question was going to be, "why had I not heard from the sisters in over a year?", The sisters and I had made a feeble attempt to reconcile in form of Birthday and Holiday cards. It was a test. Not one I took willingly, but out of obligation to my parents. I felt my Dad would be really upset if I didn't try. We failed. I didn't try with a good heart because I knew emotionally I had given up years ago. Let's just say, my blunt blog words were read and not appreciated. I came back from vacation to a little letter telling me so. Oh well. Found it interesting they were looking for me. I was only being polite with the cards and I should have followed my heart and just do what it told me to do. Don't get involved.. Perhaps it would have been kinder not to send cards in case there was any emotion left on anyone's plate. I guess that was still the "pleaser" part of me that conformed. You know, there is a very fine line between love and hate and people often say hate is love gone bad. Sometimes we don't like people because they are too much like ourselves. I don't hate, I dislike. I am clear on the fact that I like and love me and that I do have peace. Yes, there is peace in forgiveness and I have that peace. I go to bed at night with a very clear consicience and wake up with one as well. There is nothing left for anyone one to forgive. It is what it is and sometimes it's gotta be that way. I am at peace and you should be as well just as I told you that day in Sams. I wish you both wonderful, long, love filled lives. As Mr. Spock would have said ladies.."live long and prosper". I mean it with all my heart. Anymore, I do a pretty good job of pissing people off with my words. It doesn't mean i'm mean or unhappy it just means I don't overthink everything I say, said or am going to say. You know what, for me that's ok. Pam